(Source: finnick-lost-his-trousers-and, via fatpeoplemakemehappy)
So there was this guy. I saw him almost everyday, but I did not know his name, his age, or whatever else there was to know about this guy. He was a complete question mark to me, and I think that that was one of the reasons why I found him so attractive (besides the fact that he was gorgeous). I, could not for the life of me (and everyone around me can attest to this) find out his name, and that was so frustrating but so exhilarating at the same time. …girls, I know.
But today, I found out his name. After weeks of being pathetic and nonsensical, I finally found out his name… along with the fact that he had a girlfriend. Now this would be perfectly fine any other time - I would have just moved on right then and there because that’s me. Whenever something doesn’t exactly work out the way that it’s planned when it comes to guys, I just drop it and move on just like that. But for some reason, this guy just stuck in my mind. He’s still stuck in there.
This is ridiculous. His roommate confirmed that he had a girlfriend, I didn’t even know his name until today, and honestly, after facebook stalking him for a bit, I’ve confirmed that his taste in music is horrible (yeah I know, says me). But why is this guy still taking over my thoughts?
Because I don’t have anybody else to move on to.
Interesting fact about me: I’ve never had a period of time where I didn’t like a guy (since I had my first crush ever). I’ve gotten over my previous crushes simply by moving onto someone else - not because there was something really wrong with them (most of the time) or because I just stopped liking them all of a sudden - it was because I just simply found someone, well, better. And now that I don’t really have anyone else to go for, I still find myself actually liking this guy.
This is not okay on any level, but I really can’t help it. I’m trying hard to “get over” him, but it’s just not happening. So here I am, left feeling distraught and hopeless and stupid and ridiculous and stupid.
